had OT today, we were changing seats in office, i am siting outside which i dun like because my colleague will know i am FB-ing.. haha

but i have fun at work although it is stress.. but i wish i can continue...

wish me luck ok..

my love life is miserable.. i finally broke up with him.. i know this is the right decision for all of us..

however deeply in my heart i still miss him sosososo much..

i am always thinking if he call me, tell me that he is sorry , i will forgive him..

but no.. i called him yesterday.. he say he is busy and tired working, dint have time to sms me. I am sad. super sad, although i know that he doesn't treat me the same before but i am still hurt, sometime i wonder what did i do wrong, what have i done, is it because our honeymoon love love period have gone or he doesn't love me anymore(sick and tired of me)..

I called him yesterday, he says he is tired and do not want to talk about the topic now, i ask him even i mentioned about break up he still dont take the initiative to contact me or to pacify me, this is why i am so hurt. I really feel that this is the end!!

he said many hurtful words to me yesterday, i cried.. but what can i do, now i only can let go, so what i really love him.. so what we thought that we are the right one.. but still things changed..

i found out that he really doesnt treasure me that much, love me that much, i dunno.. i just feel insecure.. i always ask him.. do he love me.. i just want him to say he love me and miss me, is that so difficult, but what did i get in return, NOTHING!! all he say is that i am annoying.. DO YOU ALL KNOW HOW HURT IS THAT..

all of my friend doesnt want me to be with him.. but i still love him so much.. what can i do..